Chance and Believing

Been praying for a miracle for a while now. A miracle is what I believed I needed. For God to reach down from heaven, lightening bolts flashing and thunder crashing.

So, when God answered my prayers with something other than a miracle. Well, let's just say it wasn't pretty. I immediately questioned, "Why?!". "Why aren't you listening to me?" (isn't' it all about me?) "Why did this happen?"

It took a few minutes, but I soon realized that God had answered my prayer. Not with a miracle. No, but He did it in exactly the way I had prayed and prayed that He would. He left no room for me to question my path. Scary how quickly I am deceived. Even after I saw how the Lord had kept His promises (as He always does)....there was still a little bitty voice in my head trying to chalk up the answered prayer to coincidence. I do not believe in coincidence.

And it's so cool to see how He continues to confirm that truth as the days have passed. Why is it such a struggle sometimes to truly believe the promises in His word and truly find rest in those promises?

Truly believing leads me to the, "Believing" portion of my post. Little Man has had a rough couple of mornings getting up early and returning to his normal schedule. When we got to YCare this morning I realized how hard I had been on him for the choices that he'd made that morning which had led to lots of frustration on both of our parts.

So before we got out of the van I told him, "You know I believe in you and I know you can make better choices."

To which he very seriously replied, "Do you believe in Jesus mommy?"

Wow, was my first thought! Little Man and I had a pretty lengthy talk the other night about Jesus and going to heaven as he is asking questions. When he asked me if I believed I was touched at how Jesus must really be heavy on his heart and mind to ask. On the other hand.....shouldn't he already know by my life, that I believe? I was touched and sorely convicted all at the same time.

Kids are so awesome. I love the way they love the Lord. Untainted, innocent, and without question.

Hubby, Handsome Boy & 60-60 Day 2

Kudos to my hubby. He has been working his tail off at work for the last couple of months. Working a ton of hours in an un-air conditioned building at KU, 12 hour days.

When I found out he was going to be working nights I was a bit dismayed and wandered, "why God?"

But, the blessings that have come from him working on this job are countless and continue to pile up. His hard work and dedication have paid off and I am so proud of him!

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On to my little man...who officially turned 6 years old yesterday. So hard to believe. The boy is obsessed with Batman, which I find odd since he's never seen a Batman movie, cartoon, or anything Batman related to my knowledge. When he got up in the morning he proceeded to instruct each of his sisters to tell him happy birthday. Where does the time go?

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Day 2 of 60-60

Still only had hourly alarm reminders up until 1pm. I need to figure out a good way to get my hourly reminders through out the entire day.

Today was different in that I did stop every time and prayed for direction from God. At times it does seem a bit robotic. I don't think it will be effective if it turns into me just doing it to say that I did it, so I'm trying/praying for real connection and re centering in God's will.

Those brief moments usually start off a bit mechanical, but always end up with me having made a connection with Him.

Something I read recently in the book "Soul Revolution" really spoke to me...and I'm curious as to what anyone who might actually read my blog.... :)......thinks about it...so here it is.

"God's 1st concern is not our behavior, but our hearts....Our behavior simply indicates how willing we are to love and trust and follow God. Relationship is what God desires; faithfulness is what pleases Him most."

Denial meets Reality

If I had a camera (ours broke a few months ago) the very first thing I'd be posting today would be a pic of my little man, decked out in BATMAN from head to toe...ready for his first day of Kindergarten.

I could not be more proud of him. The morning didn't quite go the way I had planned....(of ALL mornings) and we arrived at school right as the bell rang. I was feeling a lot like a failure of a mother for helping little man show up late on his first day!

Nevertheless, he kept his cool and that gorgeous smile of his. When we got to his class he sort of stepped back. Not physically, but I could tell by his demeanor that he withdrew a bit. There were lots of other parents still there so I had some time to get him settled. We looked around and found some of his friends from his pre-school class last year which really brought a smile to his face. When I left he was doing the craft! Not to be derogatory...but most that know my little man would likely be as surprised as I was to see him so focused and quiet doing a craft.

Man.......did I say I'm proud of him. That little guy inspires me.

My morning was so packed after that with getting my girls and going to meet a possible new babysitter...that I really didn't have time to "go there"...if you know what I mean.

It wasn't until I was on my way to church....that everything....and I mean EVERYTHING hit me and I pretty much became a sobbing, emotional basket case. Yes, the "ugly cry" was in full effect! Praise God for sunglasses!

Denial is a beautiful thing. oops....NOT really. For many weeks now I've been in denial about the inevitable changes about to effect our family. You know that thing some of us do.....if I don't think about it, maybe it will just go away? That saying...which is ridiculous and just makes things worse in the end? Yeah...that's the one I've been using to manage the changes in my life recently. Not such a good thing.

Needless to say....reality hit today...and Monday...reality will hit full force.

Thank you so much Lord for your promises.

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

My "handsome boy"......

Tomorrow is your first day of kindergarten and you couldn't be more excited. Sleep didn't come easy for you tonight, and after a brief round of frustration on my part, I remembered back to those days.....

You are such a wonderful little boy with a huge heart to go with that beautiful smile. I find myself looking at you these days and wandering when my adorable little boy turned into such a handsome, funny, caring, and helpful little man.

To see the smile on your face tonight as we prayed about your day tomorrow...your excitement growing......it's such a blessing.

I pray that as you go out into this world, you always believe in how special you are....just the way God made you.

Or...as you put it, "Mommy, I'm going to do a good job tomorrow because I'm smart and funny and a good friend!"

Surfboards & Walmart.......huh???

So, my little man and I were grocery shopping at Walmart a few weeks ago....just the 2 of us. It was a BLAST! But I have to say........my favorite part was when he pointed out to me that Walmart sells surfboards!!


As we were walking down one of the center aisles I hear, "LOOOK Mommy!! They sell surfboards!" All I'm thinking at the point is, "huh???......they do?"

So I asked little man to show me.......which he does. Man, ironing boards sure do look like surfboards don't they?! At least to an "almost 6" year old.

I didn't have the heart to break it to him that those weren't surfboards.....so instead I took a pic of the so-called surfboards with my cellphone for him to show Daddy....which he got even more excited about. It wasn't until shortly thereafter when he discovered "surfboards with polka dots", as he put it...that I had to spoil the fun and explain that those weren't really surfboards after all. As I discussed the situation I happened to glance up just in time to see an older gentleman looking our direction chuckling.......I think he must have over heard.

Oh to be a child again. Hard to believe my little man starts Kindergarten in 6 days!!!!

This is a pic of him showing us his "twin eye"...as he put it. Another hilarious little man moment. We have no idea where the whole "twin eye" thing came from but it sure was funny.